Visit from My Mom!

This is just what I needed to feel better, honestly! My mother was away during surgery. She was on a pre-planned vacation with my sister and husband and their two little kids to Disney for the week. My surgery was moved up a week due to my cycle, or my mom would have been able to be here. They had planned the vacation a year in advance, so there was really nothing I could do or say. I had no idea 4 weeks ago that I would have to have surgery, and there was no real reason for me to postpone. After all, we really don't want to waste any more time. I will be 40 in December. :(

Moving forward...I can start a cycle around the middle of September. I am hopeful it will work. I'm sure they will have me do another cycle of IUI with Lupron again. We had a great cycle last time except the side effects at the end. My estrogen was 1300 before trigger and they said everything else looked good on my blood work. The main problem was they could not see anything from the ultrasounds- there was something blocking and they could pretty much never get a good picture of my ovaries on either side. They even tried putting the wand into my belly button and looking down- boy was that uncomfortable! It is all making sense now as they said the fibroid was near the top of the uterus towards the right side, the only side I've had eggs so far. That big round mass was taking up space and probably blocking up the works. I probably DID have eggs. They might have come down and fertilized and never attached, or they were not able to meet up with each other in order to create an egg. So I am very hopeful that was the MAIN problem and now it is gone. I do not expect everything to go smoothly, I am just able to be more positive today.

I still have some pain near my belly button. I think it was slightly infected from the laparoscopy. It was very pink and hurt quite a bit. But I never got a temperature over 99 and it did not bleed or do anything except ache. Today it hurts slightly, like I did too many crunches or was punched in the gut. I can end over to reach something on the floor (there's plenty of laundry piled up) with a little better ease today, but I am not going to push it. I am going to let my mom drive me around and do a few errands. Maybe we can do a little crafting.

The main thing I have been working on is clearing out the back bedroom to make a baby nursery. It has taken me 8 years to consider this. Before the surgery, I began organizing my stuff and deciding what stays and goes. It is a big step for me...to BELIEVE and to PLAN. It will feel good when my mom gets here to spend time and help me.