Day three of shots went well. I cried last night as the first one really hurt and the other two were frightening. It is mostly in my head. I see those needles coming and I can't look. He tries to hide behind his back. The dogs were gathered around like it was treat time! I wish it was a treat for me! He tried to do the shots in different order- the one that stings and burns first instead of last. I told him to change it around and not tell me. It did help but for some reason it especially stung that time. :( He gave me a big hug after and said sorry. He is a good hugger, with big broad shoulders and it is truly a bear hug that comforts me.
I had a good day teaching at our little camp. They had some really cool new pieces and we also added some fiddle things today. It is nice when the summer kids actually do work. It is sometimes unlike the rest of the year! My good friend is back in town from grad school and it was so nice to be back working with her. I got done and had lunch with friends. Then off to take my dog Maggie to get her nails trimmed. She was a good girl so we all went to Starbucks to pick up something for the husband. He is quite miserable at work these days. :(
Last night I went biking and running. I did about 20 minutes each. I felt much better when I was done. It was hard to get running. I feel all kinds of stiff and tight in my legs and especially in my feet. But I worked through it and felt a sense of accomplishment. My bike ride was strong and I felt good. I stopped the Garmin for one small length to stretch out more and forgot to restart it so I had to guess my running time. I am very overweight right now. I feel awful about myself, but I am determined to push through this low self esteem and depression about my infertility issues. I need to just MOVE. Anything, walking the dogs, bike rides, whatever. My run was made better with music...thank you to my awesome playlists!
Next step...find the confidence to get back to my gym!
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